That bye was not a usual bye, because it was the last one

Hey, everyone!

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It’s been a long time since I shared anything with you! So, I am going to share a piece of my work with you which is titled- ‘That Unusual Bye’.

THE UNUSUAL BYE

She was lying there,
Silently, quietly, without saying a word.
When everyone was trying to wake her up in the sea of red fluid,
She doesn’t want to wake up.
It was hard to watch,
She lay there peacefully while everyone else was making noise and being unclear.
Things were messy,
But she didn’t want to wake up.
There were cries,
But she still doesn’t want to wake up.
Her skin was pale eyes were closed,
All I could see was a girl lying on the floor.
She has slept for the rest of her life,
She won’t be coming back, and no one could bring her to life.
The slit on her wrist was not the sign of cowardliness,
It was just too hard to take things anymore because no one could feel that.
It was hard to watch her lying there,
On the death bed, we couldn’t believe it.
It was just too hard to accept the fact,
That usual goodbye was our last one.
I wish I could help her,
I wish I could understand,
But the fact is I was unable to see the real truth behind that usual smile.
I regret it, I swear, I do,
I wish I could talk to her about all the fears and blues.
Now, when she is no more,
I am getting the clues.
That same girl who used us laugh,
she is no longer with us anymore.
~Anjali Kapoor

​I wrote this after watching a show about #SuicideAwareness.
I don’t know how many people go through difficulties in their lives, but ignoring them and saying, “Hey, you’ll be fine!” lead them to take heart-wrenching steps.
If someone tells you and shares their insecurities, difficulties, and suicidal thoughts with you, your first reaction should never be- “Hey, you’ll be fine!”

They are having a difficult time. People are supposed to encourage them. If you know any such person, give them a tight hug and tell them- “I am with you, and you can share anything with me.”

I, personally, know someone, someone close to me who was on the verge. The circumstances, actions, and reactions drove that person to the point where he/she thought that the only solution was suicide. When I asked what the person was thinking at that particular point in time, the answer was “NOTHING. I wasn’t thinking. It was too heavy to take in.”

We, as a society, are responsible for many teenage suicides. We have forgotten basic human emotions like empathizing, supporting, and understanding. We would rather judge a person than helping him/ her in a difficult time. Let’s try to be more humane.

And if you are having such thoughts in your mind, talk to someone, it can be anyone- your family, friends, even a stranger could put you out it. There’s always one person who loves you more than you love yourself. Suicide doesn’t end the suffering and pain; it transfers it to another person- mostly to the people who love you the most. Life is about living, sharing, and caring. Love them, share with them, and care about them. But first, learn to love yourself.
Suicide is not the answer to your problems and what goes inside your head. You leave many people behind with guilt in their hearts for the rest of their lives. Before taking this step, sit back, think, and try to comprehend what would be their life without you.

For those who are going through a tough time

Dear ones,

Did you ever hear or read this?

Alice: How long is forever?
White Rabbit: Sometimes just a second.

This is what I realized when he left me, though it wasn’t a second but our forever lasted just for a few months. But those few months gave me a lifetime lesson which I want to pass on to everyone who is going through the same or have been through the same. Don’t be afraid of facing the reality, specially if you can see those things in front of you. Don’t fool yourself just because you “think” that person will never hurt you. Times changes rapidly and so do people. You cannot rely on one person for your happiness.

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This is what I thought after a few months after my bad break up

I would like to say “thank you” to you for making me who I am today, this is all because of you. You left me on a broken path, a path which was full of thrones, a shattered, demolished and saddening path; you left me alone there with no other choice than crying. I was broken and sad, crying all day long, behaving like a stubborn kid, being mad on everyone I come across. There are very few people who can change you and you were one of them for me. I’m so lucky because you did all those things to me because in the end I’m way more than “just broken”. I still remember the good time we had spent together and it doesn’t make me sad. I enjoyed being with you, all those cute fights, your fake care, your unrealistic feelings, your unapologetic apologies and much more and I swear, I don’t regret it even a bit. Do you know why? Because it made me happy. Though the happiness was just for a matter of time but I was genuinely happy.

Then one day you realized that you don’t want me anymore. Strange? I was also numb at that time. How you spent so much time with me and then suddenly you realized I’m not the one you always wanted, I am just another girl, just another next door girl for you and now probably a mad and crazy ex-girlfriend.

It was a hard time for me but you know what I have learnt throughout the time?
That some people can never be permanent in your life, no matter how badly you want them to be with you, things take an ugly and sharp turn and boom! you’re out of track. You have to get back no matter what. Everything will be same except one thing, that one person you thought will be with you forever.

Some people lose there interest in life just because that special some leaves an empty place in their life and makes sucidial attempts which is the most stupid thing one can do.
Just close your eyes for 30 seconds and think about the other people who are there in your life except him/her.
Even if you get just one name in your mind, think about that person.

What that person will do without you?
How that person would manage the permanent empty place in their life that you will leave?
What that person will go through?

Think about your parents, your siblings, your bestfriend or your potential lover.

He or she left because they were not smart and strong enough to handle you; they thought you’re not worth but actually they are not worth your love. And yes this is true; they are seriously not worth your love.

Did you ever try to think why people leave you?

They leave because we have a better story ahead.
They leave because we deserve better.
They leave so that we can learn about life.
They leave so that we can know the real meaning of love.
They leave so that we can understand people better.
They leave so that we can make better decisions in our lives.
They leave to make us STRONGER than we were.

They close their doors for you but life opens another door for us, for a new adventure, for a new lesson, for a new beginning.

So Dear Happy Souls,
Make yourself stronger and experienced. Be an inspiration. Be a winner. Even if you’re losing it all remember one things, you are increasing your chances to be the winner next time.

This is the reason I am thankful to him who left me and made me a strong, confident and happy person who can tell the difference between real and fake, who cannot be fooled once again.

It’s totally your choice to be a better person and live a happy life or live a miserable life and push yourself in the hell of depression.
Trust in yourself.

 

You come alone in this world and You leave alone. Just think why do you need somebody to help you to leave? Help yourself.

 

A person who genuinely loves you will not ask you for big things, he/she will be happy just with your smile.

The Love Letter Project- Write a Letter and Change a Life ♥

Using internet is too mainstream, daily we come across many things on the internet, many websites, my articles, many letters, many stories and many people. Everyone has their own stories and almost everyone is suffering in their lives, but they prefer not to show it to the world, to others because those who care can understand themselves and those who don’t will either make fun of it or don’t even think about it. Pains and sufferings are the part of the world and human life, we never get rid of pain, but we ultimately learn to live with it, we get used to it, we start keeping it out of our usual life, and this is what we call “Spirit to live life”.

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I came across a very beautiful initiative by a team of six ladies, Fiona McGlynn, Christine Nguyen, Quynh B. Le, Priscilla Correa, Jamie Smith and Ivy Chan, few days back i.e. The Love Letter Project. This website posts a collection of letters that are written to help people to overcome the problems of their lives. A person can help many others by writing just one letter,to help others overcome life’s greatest challenges.

The Love Letter Project was created in 2013, when the founder, Fiona McGlynn, received a gem of advice: “If you want to be passionate in life, consider the greatest challenge you’ve faced, and help the next person to overcome it.” Fiona decided to draw on her experience with her parent’s divorce and write a children’s book (“i and the Great Divide”) designed to help kids in divorce feel loved and self-expressed. She was so inspired and moved by the experience of connecting with families in divorce that she decided to encourage other people to follow the same piece of advice.

Helping others is not only the greatest pleasure one can have but it is the best possible thing one can do and it surely gives the immense feeling of satisfaction. In fact, I read many letters and I am so sure that if you are in a problem there are many others like you, if you have managed to overcome your fears and problems then I am sure you can help many others. Consider the most difficult situation you have been through and write a letter to share your experience, it is not very difficult to help another person you just need a little courage to share your experience. I, honestly, feel that this is one of the best and beautiful thing I have come across. Write a love letter about a challenge you faced, and you will touch hearts, lift spirits, and show the world that no one is alone.

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Please support them by hosting a letter writing party, writing a letter yourself, and sharing this project in your communities and on social media. I have done my share, I hope you would do the same. 🙂

Please visit http://www.theloveletterproject.ca/ and change a life. ♥

THE SECOND CHANCE

Together Again

It was their last exam and everyone was excited for the house party and upcoming Goa trip. Kiara, Rishaan and Diya are friends from last 3 years as they are college friends, now in final year. Rishaan and Kiara have been dating from last 2 years. Diya and Kiara were bestfriends from their school time. All of them were studying psycology at University of Delhi.

“Finally, exams over”, Kiara had no bounds to her happiness. All of them went to QDs to have something and they planned about the house party. After having their meal, they left for their home.

Kiara started looking for her best dress for tonight as she wanted to look the best. She was stubborn and a little obssessed. Rishaan was a big time flirt since his school days. He has a heartachingly beautiful smile and looks extremely handsome and so does Kiara. They were the cutest couple of college, kind off made-for-each-other. Moreover Kiara had a jawdropping personality, the way she looks; she was a proper fashionista and a perfect package as a girl. Diya was also pretty but as she always stood by Kiara’s side so she use to get less attention but it never bothered her. She was a simply amazing and way mature than Kiara. Diya use to have crush on Rishaan but after she got to know about Kiara and Rishaan, she drifted away from Rishaan. But being a flirt, Rishaan never left a chance to hit on Diya and she always took it as sarcasm, never bothered to tell Kiara.

Kiara and Rishaan reached Diya’s home quite late. They were already quite drunk. They had an awesome party that night. Everything was going fine, Kiara drank like a fish. Rishaan was enjoying the dizzyness after drinking. Almost everyone left and there were only a few people left so they decided to play Truth and Dare game. After a few rounds, it was Diya’s turn, she chose truth and Rishaan asked her the question, “Have you ever fantasized about me or had a crush on me?”, as they were playing a game, she said the truth and said “Yes, I had a crush on you but as soon as I got know about you and Kiara that thing just ended up”. But the words just stuck in Rishaan’s mind. After evryone left except Diya’s cousins, Kiara and Rishaan, Diya started organizing things. Rishaan went into room to make Kiara sleep comfortably but the thing Diya said was playing on repeat mode in his head. After everyone slept, Rishaan went into Diya’s room. Diya went to get bath and when she came out she found Rishaan on his bed.

She asked,”Hey, what are you doing here? Why aren’t you with Kiara?”

“Because I want you”, said Rishaan. He held her waist and continued, “Look at the mirror. You look just so incredibly sexy. I accept she is your best friend but can’t you just forget it for a night and let us have some fun tonight? And really honey, you don’t need to worry about anything. I will not utter even a word to Kiara and you know we can carry on our secret relation side-by-side. What do you say?”

She was awestruck. She couldn’t understand what and why is Rishaan saying all the stuff. “Are you kidding me? What the hell is wrong with you? Have you lost it? Just get out of here!” she yelled.

He came closer to her held her waist and said, “You know what you are no less than Kiara. You are equally beautiful, but the only thing that keeps you behind her is your maturity. Don’t be naïve. You better know you don’t have any option”, in the course, he landed his lips one her’s. She was furious as hell she pushed him and shouted, “Get the hell out of here. I always told Kiara that you are a fucking flirt and not meant to be trusted but she never trusted me, now I am surely gonna tell her. Get out now!”

He left the room without uttering a word and Diya was sleepless all night. She couldn’t gather the courage to tell Kiara about last night. She was confused, tired and helpless. She cried until she fell asleep.

Her sleep broke down with a ray of sun. The moment she opened her eyes the memories of last night ran down her eyes and again she started feeling helpless. She was distracted with a knock on her door, she asked,”Who is this?”

“It’s me Diya. Please open the door. Please” Rishaan replied.

“I told you last night also. Just go away. I don’t want to see you face.”

“Please Diya just for a second I swear I will not show you my face again.”

She got up and opened the door. “Diya I am really sorry for last night. I was drunk and out of senses. I didn’t realize what was happening. I am sorry. Please don’t tell Kiara about it.”

“Wow! You mean if a guy is drunk he can flirt around with anyone. Just because you were out of senses doesn’t mean you will cheat on your girl. Nothing gives you the right to cheat on a person who loves you with all the heart.”

He kept quiet and fell down on his knees and cried in front of Diya. “You think if you will cry, I will change my decision then I am sorry Rishaan I will not. Just go out.” She said. She threw him out of her room and went to shower directly. She was thinking about the last night and the entire dramatic scene happened just now. She felt sad and decided not to tell Kiara otherwise thing will get even worst.

Rishaan tried to contact Diya many times in whole week but she didn’t pick his call. But she anyway had to face him on their upcoming Goa trip. She and Kiara went for shopping and had number of meetings in that week but she decided not to share anything with her.

Next week, they were all set for Goa. They met at the airport and the obvious discomfort between Rishaan and Diya got Kiara’s attention and she asked many times what is actually wrong between them. Both of them denied and said there is nothing wrong.

In the middle of the flight, Kiara woke up to go to the washroom. When she returned, she was too lazy to push her way into the middle seat. And with Rishaan readily offering to shift seats, the seating arrangement changed. With 20 minutes still remaining for the flight to land, a sleep starved Kiara took another power nap, this time holding Rishaan’s right hand more firmly. Rishaan’s other hand, though, nervously moved to touch Diya’s. Her heart skipped a beat. Diya pulled her hand away. But a defiant Rishaan held her wrist again, this time firmly and more reassuringly. The changing behavioral dynamics between the three perhaps gave out a foreboding of what was to come in Goa.

When the flight landed at the Dabolim Airport, Rishaan felt uncanny…his excitement seemed replaced by an unknown fear that he found very difficult to decipher. The fear of not being trusted, the fear of losing someone which he actually nevr felt and yes it was his first time. He felt anxious. Suddenly, Kiara distracted him and asked him to get taxi. They all went to the hotel and prefered to take rest as they had plans for night. Kiara and Diya settled in one room and Rishaan with two other friends; Karana and Ishant; went to other room.

Diya and Kiara woke up with a knock on their door. Kiara opened the door, it was Rishaan, and she asked him to come inside at the same time Diya walked out and there was no doubt something was wrong between them. Kiara looked at Rishaan and asked him, “What happended Rish?”

“Nothing sweetie.”

“Oh come on Rish, I have been noticing this from last party you guys are behaving awkwardly with each other. Even Diya is not telling me anything. Either you are telling me now or this trip is going to be our last trip.”

“What the hell is wrong Kiara? How can you say that? Nothing is wrong and if you are so much curious about it then I guess you should ask your best friend.” Shouted Rishaan and left the room.

 

They were all set for the beautiful evening and the bonfire party. Kiara was looking beautiful as always but when Rishaan noticed Diya his heart almost dropped a beat. She was looking miraculously beautiful and he could not take off his eyes but what Karan and Ishant notied was that Kiara and Diya were not together. They asked them, what happened and why they are not together but both of them did not bother to tell them about the little fight over the awkward behaviour.

Rishaan asked, “What would you guys like to have?”

They told their choices and after a couple of drinks the awkwardness between them was over.

“Hey, what is the matter Rish? Why did you asked us to come here? We were having fun outside”, said Kiara.

“See, Kiara I can’t hurt you any more and I want to tell you the truth.” Kiara was struck and said, “What are you talking about Rish?”

“Kiara we have been together from last two years and trust me I never felt the way I am feeling now; I don’t think we should see each other anymore. Somethings are never meant to happen; I finally realised what I want, whom I actually want and you are not the one. You are a really nice girl and I owe you so much but taking our relationship anymore will end up with even more bitterness and I don’t want that.”

“Wow!! I am glad Rishaan Malik. You finally realised that you are not in love with me. So, who is the lucky bitch? And by the way, why did you bring Diya over here? To see all the drama?” she yelled “You know what, people around me always told me that you are a jerk but I never believed them and see what you turned out to be. I just cannot believe this.”

“Kiara, it is Diya. I am sorry, I realised with the passing time that she is the one I want, she is like the one with whom I always wanted to be, she defines what I want. You are just way to perfect for me even more than perfect. You deserve the best of all.” He narrated the whole post exam story to her. They did not notice that Diya has already left. “Diya is gone” Rishaan said.

Kiara wiping her tears said “I wish I would never see you again.”

And from there, their paths diverted for rest of lives, they thought so.

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After 5 Years at college reunion:

They are again at the same place, the place where 5 years ago they met for the last time, same place where they spent the best time of their life or may be the time that taught them a lot more than anything else would. It was their college reunion. Diya and Kiara made an eye contact and could not resist each other, Kiara’s husband forced her to talk to her childhood best friend whom she missed so much in last 5 years and told her husband the story obviously not the whole story but a part of it.

“Hi Diya” said Kiara.

“Hi Kiara” replied Diya.

They hugged each other and sorted out all the misunderstanding. Kiara asked her about how she has been and what she is doing now. Diya told her about dating someone from her work, whom she is planning to marry. Diya asked Kiara about her husband. On the same time, Rishaan and Kabir entered to the party and as always Rishaan was all groomed up and looking handsome as always, Kiara and Diya saw him and Kiara was all shocked when she saw his boyfriend with Rishaan. Kabir walked directly toward Diya and Rishaan asked him why he is going there. He tells him about Diya then Rishaan realised, how awful situation it would be but rather than sitting back he told Diya about Kabir who was already dating one of his friend.

“You again came into our lives to ruin them. Don’t you have better things to do? Last time you screwed me up and this time Diya” Kiara yelled at him.

“Kiara, stop it please. It has been 5 years and you are still at that point. Please stop it, now you are married. I am sorry for whatever i did. I know only a sorry cannot give that time back but since then I never spent a minute of satisfaction. Do you know why? Because I always felt guilty about what i did with you, I always thought about Diya and wished if i could meet her for the last time and tell her the whole truth. I know it must have been hard for you but it was equally hard for me. Please forgive me for whatever I did.” said Rishaan in a very calm tone.

Diya couldn’t stop crying as she was all broken once again. First, when she got to know about her best friend being with someone she likes and now Kabir whom she decided to get marry. Rishaan wiped her tears and hugged her firmly and said, “Diya I never thought that we would ever meet again, i never tried to reach you in these years because i thought you must have found someone who actually deserves you. You should have someone who knows how to make you happy when you are not even in the mood to smile. You should be with someone who brings out the best in you. You should be with someone who accepts you for what you are, for all your flaws, all your imperfections and what you are. And Kabir is not the one.” She hugged him even tighter and couldn’t hold her tears.” He continued, “I don’t know if this the right time or not but i have already wasted last five years of my life without you and this time i will not let you go at any cost. I want to spend the rest of my life with you no matter how hard it would be because i know you will be there to make things right, to correct me, to love me and i will love you with all my heart for the rest of my life. I LOVE YOU. WILL BE MINE? ”, directly looking into her eyes.

“YES”, she replied.

And his lips pressed hers at the moment. It was the most beautiful moment for them.

And the love lost..

It was their fourth wedding anniversary; Maya was eagerly waiting for her husband, Aman who promised her in the morning to take her out for dinner after a long time. Their meaningless fights from past six months made her feel suffocated, insecure and even she tried to spy on him but didn’t get enough proofs and finally gave up thinking, may be she’s overthinking. She took a last glimpse of herself in mirror and said “Perfect! Everything is done. And finally today I’m going to give Aman the news we were waiting for.” It’d been more than an hour, she was absolutely ready and looking stunning in her black lace dress and a red lipstick. She finally called him but he didn’t receive but she hopefully told herself, “He must be driving. Stop acting like a stupid naive woman Maya.”

 

Maya was a strong headed woman who believes in proves but from past few months she was dealing with stress. She was an impossible woman. A woman every man desires. Beautiful. Intelligent. Brave. Smart. Witty. She was a combination of perfection.

 

It’s already 11.35 p.m. and waiting anymore would be worthless as she also have her office next morning. She was half asleep on sofa when the doorbell rang. She got up furiously and opened the door as Aman already had pissed her off. The moment she opened the door, she burst into tears she saw her husband all drunk, unable to stand and his shirt have strong fragrance of women’s cologne. She took him into bedroom and made him sleep comfortably. Her night was almost sleepless.

 

She woke up in the morning and decided not to say anything. First thing she did was packing a bag. She took bath and dressed in formals, made breakfast for Aman and left without informing him. On the way to office, she was constantly thinking about him but had no hint what actually happened to him. She decided to call Aman’s best friend, Sanjay.

“Hey, Sanjay! How have you been?….. Where are you nowadays?…. Yes, actually i wanted to meet you…. Yes..today..evening would be perfect..come to my place we can have a cup of coffee too… It’s been long time…yes, sure..Alright..see you in the evening at 7..” and hanged up the call. The day was horrible for her; neither she did her work properly nor she felt like talking to anybody. That little doubt, of Aman being with someone else, in her head was turning from a tumour to cancer which almost taken her soul away and made her feel dead.

 

She arrived at home in evening, Sanjay was already sitting with a cup of tea in his hand, served by her maid.

“Hey, Sanjay! What’s up these days? Where were you?” smiled and asked.

“The same thing Maya. Office-Home-Sleep-Repeat.”

 

Sanjay was Maya and Aman’s best friend from their college time. They gossiped and finally Maya came to the topic.

“Sanjay, see i don’t know what is happening but i want to ask you about something about Aman because you are the only person who knows him more than anyone else.”

“What happened to you Maya?”

“I don’t know but i guess Aman is having an affair with Akansha, her colleague.I am sure you know about it. Tell me the truth.”

His face fell like he was trying to hide something from her.

She can’t take his silence anymore and shouted ‘What the hell is going on between my husband and that bitch?’ Maya’s patience was at its lowest ebb and she was ready to burst.

 

Sanjay knew that she was serious. ‘Look, Maya. There is nothing going on between the two of them. Just a little bit of healthy flirting, I’d say.’

 

‘Flirting? Healthy flirting? Really Sanjay . . .’ she rolled her eyes in disgust. ‘That’s what you men call it? There is nothing healthy about flirting, Sanjay, not for a married man.

 

Healthy flirting is a term introduced by perverted men who want to lend legitimacy to their extramarital dalliances. Flirting invariably has a sexual connotation to it.’ She got up from her seat and walked around the room gesticulating and muttering something to herself. Suddenly she stopped, turned back, looked at Sanjay and asked, ‘Did my husband sleep with her? You are his friend. Did he ever tell you anything about it?’

 

His silence was her answer and it stabbed her heart like someone knowingly stabbing and cutting her heart into many small pieces. She never felt as depressed as she was feeling now. Tears rolled down her cheeks like a hot volcano erupted after a long time and proved to be destructive like anything. She fell down on her knees. Sanjay tried to convince her but she knew Aman was at fault. She needed an answer for all the questions which she had kept to herself from last six months or may be she was still not ready to believe everything which was coming up to her and that is why she needed answers. She was broke, all broken into pieces because she left everything for Aman. She told Sanjay , “Aman, the guy, for whom I left everyone. My home. My family. My friends. My native place. And moved to USA where I know no one apart from a few people and you are one of them. And the bitch Akansha, who is at the verge of destroying my whole life. I can’t let her take away my happiness like this. I’ll show her what it is like to steal someone’s husband. And you have to help me in this.”

 

Sanjay replied, “But it isn’t only her fault. Aman was also into her. I don’t know what happened to both of you. How you guys haven fallen apart? You guys need to sit down and try to clear the things out. It’s not easy to be with someone who doesn’t belong to you anymore. I had suggested him also but…. “

“But???”

“But i don’t know. You are beautiful, you love him a lot, you care for him, and moreover you left everything for him. I wish i can get someone like you. But i just don’t understand how he turned out to be an asshole.” He came closer to her, hugged her. Embraced her in his arms and his hands slowly moving from her shoulders to her lower back. In the very next second she realised, he was upto something else. She pushed him away. And shouted, “You, son of bitch!! Get out of my house. Right now. You think i would do adultery behind my husband’s back. NO. I will never. Yes, I know Aman and I do have problems. But that doesn’t mean you’ll take a chance on me and I will accept. Every relation do have problems. Every relation go through ups and downs. But that doesn’t mean I’ll do the same things what he’s doing. He has just lost his way. I will make him understand. I don’t need your fucking help. GET OUT NOW!!!”

“….but atleast listen to me…”, Sanjay mumbled.

“Listen to you? Why? Listen to a man who does not respect a woman? Listen to someone who does not even respect about the bond we do have? You call yourself my and Aman’s best friend? Is this what best friends do? Try to seduce best friend’s wife?”

 

“NO! NO! NO! Shut up Maya and listen to me!” shouted Sanjay “Wait here without uttering even a single word. I’m coming.”

 

He went to the door which was half opened and asked Aman to come in. Maya was so shocked when she saw Aman coming inside. Her inner goddess was burning with flames of jealousy. She couldn’t believe her eyes. She felt like killing herself at the moment, lost her all strength, feeling so weak as if she’s suffering from some disease. She fell down on her knees and cried her heart out.

 

“I can’t take it anymore Aman. You want to be free? Alright. You are free from now. I’m leaving. I would prefer to walk away rather than seeing you with someone else. Maybe i was wrong to trust you and to think you are the one. You are free….” She sobbed. There was pin drop silence in the room.

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Sanjay looked at Aman for a while and broke his silence.

“Aman, what the hell is wrong with you? At least say something now. It is height of everything. I promised you to stay quiet till now and I didn’t speak even a single word to her. But now it is turning into a living hell. I guess you should tell her everything now else I’m going to tell her everything. Look at her she’s the lady whom you were blaming for whole misunderstanding and mess. She is the lady whom you were doubting. Now don’t stand here like an ass, tell her everything.”

 

Maya was looking at Sanjay and Aman awestrucked. She cried, “What is actually going on? What the hell are you guys up to? I am ready pissed off. Stop making a fool out of me Aman.”

 

Finally Aman broke his silence. “Maya, I’m really sorry for everything I’ve done. I accept I was wrong but I don’t know i was feeling suffocated, your nagging behaviour, our daily fights, all these things were irritating me. I was feeling like marrying you was my biggest mistake. But now I realised I was stupid to look for love outside our happy life. I’m sorry for raising my finger on you, I’m sorry for doubting you, I’m sorry for going out with another lady, I’m sorry for each and every time I thought you were wrong” tears rolled down his face, he continued, “I know you are the only person who can handle me. I have been with Akansha from last few months and I realized, the only person who can handle me is you, My love.”

 

Maya was stunned, she didn’t say even a single word and was staring at Aman without even blinking her eyes. All her doubts were clear. She wanted to say so many things but words were not ready to come out of her mouth. Neither could she cry nor get angry. The room was calm and silent with three of them. The silence was heart snatching. Maya’ s heart was in her hand totally borken.

 

She wiped her tears,collected her thoughts, cleared her mind and throat and said “I should have told this before Aman. But now, when you confessed all your mistakes and apologizing to me I want to tell you a good news but now you’ll not be lucky enough to be its part. I am pregnant.”

 

Everyone was shocked and Aman stepped ahead to hug Maya but she stepped back and shouted, “Stay away!!!”

 

“I’m sorry Maya please listen to me once.”

 

“No! There’s nothing left to say and ask…Now the time is over. Everything is over. Me and you. Our relation. The happy moment. Love. Marriage. EVERYTHING.”

 

“But our child Maya. Please be with me for our child. I also know, you don’t want to spoil our child’s future for this. I know you will never.”

 

“Our child? No. Never. This is not our child. This is mine. Only mine. We are over.” answered Maya.

 

She went to room grabbed her bag which she packed in the morning before she left for work.

 

Aman tried to stop her. She pushed him away and said, “Don’t touch me!”

 

“You are an asshole and I don’t want my child to be with a man who is a coward. Who doesn’t even tried to talk to her wife about personal problems rather preferred to go out and perform adultery with another woman.”

 

Aman followed her and tried to stop her, “Maya please don’t leave me like this. I really love you.”

 

She made up her mind, turned back and said, “Love?” she laughed “Do you even know the meaning of love? This is not Love, Aman. Love is about trust, love is about compatibility, love is about falling even more with increasing number of years, love is a very pure emotion which people like you can never understand and try to give them other name like you did with Akansha “Just healthy flirting” . You betrayed me once. Why should i trust you again? Can you mend the broken glass or a torn up paper again? No, you cannot.” she continued, “Yes, it will take time to control myself, to get over you, to mend the broken pieces of my heart, to recover but next time if we will ever meet you will not see the Maya who use to love you, who cried over you, who gave up everything for you. I’m not a little teenage girl who cries over her boyfriend, I’m a lady with strong head. I will not die to see you every other day. And you don’t need to worry about my pregnancy. I can handle myself. Don’t ever think that I’m alone or lonely, I’m strong enough to take care of myself and my child. We don’t need you. Aman and Maya are over.”

 

She walked out.
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SPEAKING THE HEART OUT

Writing is kind off a passion which brings all your feelings and emotions on paper. Whether they are short stories, poems, songs or quotes. Writing gives me an immense pleasure and satisfaction. It works as a therapy for me.

Cry it out or write it down,
There is no in between!

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The best part about writing is portraying your words in form of a poem.

“SPEAKING THE HEART OUT” is one such poem which is very close to my heart. The poem goes like this :

I just wanna fly higher into the sky,
Breaking all the boundaries around.

Open my soul filled with hopes and dreams,
Take an escape from the unrealistic fears.

Limits are meant for people with dismay,
I have left all the fears away.

Sit under the sky full of stars,
Listening to the beat of my heart.

Best is yet to come in the way,
Being stressed over stupid things spoil the day.

Free your heart from all the despair,
And keep aside all the silly care.

Talk your heart out to yourself,
Because no one else can understand you better than yourself.

Boundaries can’t stop you from reaching the height,
Stop fearing over the things that doesn’t need your fight.

Love Annie ❤

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Hope you enjoyed and liked it. ☺

Anjali Kapoor