It was all going well, I was happy with him after all I have got the perfect person in my life, a best friend is no less than a blessing and when that best friend becomes your partner, the love two people share become even more stronger. There is nothing that can break your bond because you know each other more than you know yourself, Shivang and I were together since our school days but never had been in relationship even after our graduation. He broke up with his girlfriend when we were in first year; we gradually came closer after his breakup and finally after our graduation we were in a full-fledged relationship, an official one you can say. Now it’s been 2 years since we are together.
Everything took a turn when my mother asked me, “Reva now you’re grown up and it’s the time to think about your future. Mrs Trivedi told me about her sister’s son, Aashray he is well settled and a very nice guy. I hope you’re getting what I am saying.”
“Mom please! I’m not ready for marriage right now, I’m just 24 and I want to work and set myself up; I am not looking forward to marry someone,” I replied angrily and in a rude tone.
She told me to think about it and left me alone. I was lying on my bed, and I felt vibration of my phone, the name flashing on my phone display was “Shivang”, I don’t know but I couldn’t gather the courage to pick up his call and tell him what just happened. So I ignored his call and slept off, we already had plans for next day.
Next evening, I met him at Starbucks cafe and told him everything about last night.
“Shivang my parents want to me marry,” I told him while sipping my coffee. He got all shocked after listening to me and his expressions were like hell disturbing.
“Marry? Dude!! That’s a great news. So when do you want me to talk to your parents?” He replied excitedly.
“They want me to marry someone else, not you.”
“Are you mad Reva? How can you even think about marrying someone else? When I asked you to marry you told me that you need time, you wanted to work and now you’re telling me that you are going to marry according to your parents choice.”
“Shivang please try to understand me, I can’t tell my parents about you.”
“What? Why? Reva I don’t think I’m lacking anywhere that you are feeling shy to tell your parents about me. I’m well settled and there’s no reason to marry someone else.”
“I know honey but my dad will never let me marry you. You’re from a Punjabi family and I belong to a Brahmin family, they will never allow me to marry you. I don’t have courage to tell my parents that I love you.”
“But we can’t give up on each other like this. You should atleast give a try and I promise if they will say no, I will not force you for anything. I promise!”
“But I can’t Shiv please try to understand, we have to end it up here.”
I got up and left, on my way back to home, I was literally in tears but those tears were meaningless. I had proved that I’m a coward who cannot even take a stand for her love.
I wiped my tears, entered my home, went to the kitchen and told my mother that I’m ready to meet Aashray. She jumped with excitement and hugged me.
I was supposed to met Aashray and his parents as planned by my parents next Friday. I got many calls from Shivang but I ignored all of them because I can’t hear him pleading me for asking my parents about him, even I was hurt but wasn’t strong enough to tell my parents about him, all those sleepless nights, his memories, from my closet to the lifeless walls of my room, everything made me miss him.
Finally, I met Aashray and his parents, he was a decent looking, well mannered man, working as Manager in a bank and his parents seemed to like me and my parents also liked Aashray. Our marriage was fixed for the month of October, three months later.
Days rolled on, I got many calls from Shivang but I have made a very big decision of my life and I cannot back out now. A week before my wedding, Riya, common friend of Shivang and me, called me and asked to meet her, I knew that this must be Shivang’s plan to meet me but I couldn’t take any risk.So, I told her to come to my place as my mother will not allow me to go out, she came to my place next day and somehow managed to get Shivang also, my mother welcomed him as well because she knew that we are best friends. I took them to my room as i don’t wanted to create any scene in front of my parents.
“Riya, what the hell is wrong with you? How could you take him here? I already warned to about it and you took him to my home. If he will try to ruin anything, I swear, I will not forgive you!” I said
“Reva at least listen to him once. You are ruining three lives just for the happiness of your parents. He is not lacking anywhere that your parents will not allow you to marry him, you should at least try once.”
“I cannot take any step back. I don’t have any option now. Please Shiv you have to leave now.” Tears rolled down my eyes and his too. We both hugged each other.
“Reva, I have loved you and always will. I just wanted to see you for the last time because I know seven days from now I will see that Reva who will not be mine. But I would still say that you should have asked your parents once. May be thing would have been different,” he wiped my tears, kissed on my forehead, hugged me even more tightly and left.
At the moment, I felt like I’m the most helpless person in the whole world because I have lost the most important person in my life that also because of my own cowardice. And I know I’m going to regret this for my whole life. I should have tried but I didn’t. My dreams, my hopes, my plans, I destroyed everything just because I was not courageous enough to put things in front of my father.
If you love someone, you have to be courageous enough to fight for it and I am among those people who gave up easily. I closed my else, laid down on bed and cried because it was the only option I had. I have become the person who I never intented to be.
Love is not easy to find, and if you find it don’t ever give up without giving it a try. If you have someone you love more than anything then there should be no option of giving up so easily.
Aashray and I tied the knots after seven day, I don’t wanted to lie to him so I told him everything and his reaction was literally unbearable. He left me in the room alone without uttering a word. He was angry with me but we had no option except carrying the relationship forward.
I lied down on my bed looking at the ceiling, I realised that I have made a horrible mistake. I seriously destroyed three lifes and I cannot undo all this mess but I have to go forward with this, I apologized to Aashray and he accepted it, he was happy and I pretended to be happy. But deep down, I have killed my soul, my heart and myself and I made myself used to the guilt that I betrayed him because I am a coward.